31st August

This time last year when my relationship hit apparently insurmountable problems, we didn’t decide to call it a day, with all the agonising pain that involves; but decided that a separation would be the answer. 

Back in 1976 when people wore baggy trousers and maxi dresses, I fell in love for the first time.  Fifteen years old, and we were in big, proper love straight out of a movie, the way only teenagers can be, when you’d gladly follow him to the ends of the earth.

Flash forward a few years and we’re in our 40’s and the cracks are starting show.  The trouble with meeting your soul mate young is that the grass is always greener on the other side of the M25.  He’d see his younger colleagues all having fun, breaking up with women only to meet a new and improved model the next weekend… and he was, there’s no right word for it, envious.  He looked in the mirror, saw the thinning hair and flashes of grey and felt like an old man who had to watch the rest of the world roll merrily by, while he spent weekends laying horizontal in front the tv.  Was he missing out on the best years of his life.  To the 52 year old man, it certainly seemed that way.

I was having doubts too – he could sense it.  Plus there were just too many occasions when he went out and I wasn’t invited! Hmmmm

In no time we were rowing and eventually we both cracked.  I can’t do this any more he said, the fun’s gone out the window, I have to have my own space. 

So we acted like adults and decided to take a break from each other

Although tearful, we both knew things had to change.  So instead of ripping each other’s hearts out, we acted like adults.  So off he went and our separation began.  Did I have fun?  The honest answer is No.  I still went out with my girlfriends which I did before, but did someone come and sweep me off my feet? Not yet…

Did he have fun?  His honest answer is No.  Clubbing, drinking, drugs…. Not his scene afterall. Yet the legal proceedings are underway….

If a couple is truly meant to be together, you can look back and laugh at the year that has flown by.  Easier to do when young and childless, not so easy when older and have kids.  We’re now going to be grandparents in a few weeks and we’re planning our eldest son’s wedding next year.  The ties will always bind us as well as nearly 35 years of memories and dare I say love….

August 2011

I have not written a blog for the past few weeks.  August began with an end of term dinner for the meditation groups which was a very enjoyable evening, reflecting back on how far people have progressed since last September.

Attending a family wedding with my estranged husband was a particularly tough time for me personally but I also believe that this month has been a challenge for many others too.  Thank goodness Mercury retrograde ends this week on Aug 26 the shadow ends Sept 9.  It’s been pushing us to look at issues of what our energy is focused on, what it is being used to create and whether we are happy with the results. You may have recognised more awareness and sensitivity to changes in your life and in others.

I ran “Live a Better Life” workshop this month which was very successful  and Nina was one of the participants. 

This is what Nina said “When they say your prayers will be answered I believed but never thought it would manifest!  After being drawn to Heather after months of being on the mailing list and not knowing who she was, I desperately needed help and I thought well I will give this a go!  Being oblivious to the signs of the universe I went for some SRT and was so overwhelmed I went in despair and came out with a feeling of abundance.  That weekend was by far the worst and best of my life.  Within 24 hours my path was cleared after the therapy and I have never looked back!  After following Heather’s careful guidance I joined the meditation class and in the past four weeks I have grown! I also attended “Live a Better Life” workshop and found it so inspiring.  I would more than highly recommend it is a must if you are questioning what’s going on? Don’t! Please see Heather she IS the answer to your prayers!

I then volunteered as a “Workshop Angel” at Gaunts House Summer Festival which was a wonderful event of workshops, music and meeting like-minded people. 

Having time out to review and reflect I recognised that now it’s important to LISTEN. A lot of us feel like we’ve been treading water. August has been about choices.  Every day we are making a choice to follow one path instead of another because each choice takes us down a different path. We have actually created our choices through our beliefs, thoughts and perceptions of what we think our world should be. 

Some people will experience this transformation through the filter of their fears and have to address their own energetic alignment and integrity (to be true to themselves). They will make choices that include us, or not. They will act from their fear and may decide that the life they have is wrong for them and abandon it, and us. They may become so different that we can no longer be with them. 

What is removed will be replaced by what fits our energy so we can be surrounded by people that we can and want to be connected and who can and want to be connected to us.   So focus on getting your sense of power back and making yourself happy.  Know that you’ll be alright no matter what!

Glastonbury 2011